Life and blog update!

Well, 
per usual, I get distracted by a new platform and try to gain interest or traction somewhere else... It seems long form is making a comeback... but substack just wasn't for me and this whole idea to start a platform "Moving through Motherhood" I had in 2024 was born from a place of fear. I was afraid to go back to work so I was scrambling to see if there was any other way to make money... but honestly I HATE the idea of relying on other people to judge me in order to be successful. I like to write and create for me and changing that would have been weird and probably made me feel insecure for a reason that I am very much too old (and wise) for. SO here I am, trying to pick up where I left off and fill in the blanks for anyone-especially anyone with PAES- that finds me. 
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 I made that last post at the start of the new year of 2024. As a teacher I get two new years in one calendar year, so summer just began and I'm ready to start fresh. I'll just give a bullet point recap of the last 1.5 years.

• I stayed home with Iris for the entire 2023-2024 school year. It really gave me the time to devote to my own health and I was able to heal emotionally and physically over time
• I got a bike
• I really started training again... For triathlons, I suppose, but I just started to love the process of working towards a goal (which is what brought me back to this blog) 
  
• I went back to work and was still able to maintain a decent training load. I typically swim once a week, run 1-2 times a week, bike 2-3 times a week (depending on run) and do very short yoga or strength the remaining days
  
• My legs got better before they got worse again. At one point I ran 10 miles for a couple weekends in a row and hit 26 miles for the week with 3 days of running.  Unfortunately my IT band flared up after that (combination of running more and bad position on the bike- which has been rectified)... my calves have declined a bit since and it became clear I'm maxing out on what I can squeeze out of the treatment I've already had. 
• Iris is turning 2!!! So I'm planning to stop breastfeeding on her birthday. Seems cruel becasue we're still in a groove twice a day (morning and night) but I think it's the easiest way to transition and it needs to be done in order to get more botox. 
  
• I have an appointment to get more botox in a little over a month! 

This is my "fitness score" which is a pretty unreliable way to measure true fitness but it does show how much my activity has increased. The phase line is when I last posted and the dots are a few races or official events.

 Overall it was a great year and a half. I don't think I can manage to keep up with blogging on a weekly basis... but every time I thought I wanted to blog, the fact that my last post was a "farewell" and that I "moved" to substack held me back. Now that it's summer I'm setting things back on track and I've got a big achievement to recap, and a big appointment coming up to share my progress through... so now I'm ready!